and now I've become the worst loser because of excessive fear !

I'm afraid. I was very scared.
fear that comes after I saw it.
something that made me feel scared.
something that made me feel threatened.
I was safe until this second.
but, I do not know what will happen to me 2 days ahead.
feel like crying now,
though I knew it was still 2 days away.
although it was not necessarily me. but, why do I feel?
because I felt. so I fear.
whereas, I should not be afraid.
but, I can not lie to myself anymore ...
that I really and very scared!
where I have to find a sense of security?
where the older brother who is usually always protect me?? anytime ...
where is he!? I'll go mad without telling anyone who!
and for JG, I must tell you as soon as possible ...
maybe tomorrow when we'll go watch the movie.
my feelings are still volatile at this point,
therefore I can not tell right now ...
to whoever reads this,
please ... whatever happens, I hope I'm alive with laughter and smiles ...

with tears,
the loser